Studies in Paralysis

Two times two is four
& I wish I could calculate my future,

just as easy, extract the unknown,
prove it with words & numbers,

not just intuition & tarot—
use other means to understand my body—

holistic, artistic, deterministic, statistic—
words trapped in the discreet quanta.

I have wars to fight
& the right odds to find

the answers like holding
breath underwater.