I caught a glimpse and it was restless
relaxing wasn’t relaxing
stillness was not possible

I caught a glimpse and it was lonely
human contact wasn’t connection
crowds were just a distraction

I caught a glimpse and it was boring
curiosity abandoned me
all things interesting waned

I caught a glimpse and it was empty
life became pointless
goals signified nothing

I caught a glimpse and I was a prisoner
freedom wasn’t freedom
the world at my feet but I wanted a hole

I caught a glimpse and it wasn’t me
I couldn’t find her
the me I know was lost

I caught a glimpse of a life without you
I long for naive faith
When hell is not a myth, the fear is real