My Leash

it’s what ties me down.
it’s what keeps me in one place.
it’s what scares me away from half the world.
it’s what keeps me following the rules.

i want to be free,
but i’ll never be free.
i can’t be free,
not for me. not anymore.

when i could have been free, i stayed. i played it safe.
now that i can’t be free, i squirm, i tug, i want to test the waters.
how far can i go, how much can i risk.

but i will always come back. i have to.
it’s the only way i will survive.
to live at all, i must live a little less.
and yet to make living worthy, i have to break my leash.